Haven't been writing this for long, I could say I've been so happy i forgot about everything else. We even decided to have a solid commitment by adopting Gru, a 2 months old male shihtzu black and white puppy. Everything was just so wonderful but yet perfect...

Why hasn't it been perfect? Well, first, I gotta say, she still talks to her Ex. If its just casual talking, i don't mind, i trust you whole-hearted. But what really hurts is when she says 'Hugs, misses, kisses, loves', that just hurts and I always pretend I know nothing about it. If I could say my love was like a bubble-wrap, every time you hurt me with those words to him, your just popping my bubbles one by one, now if you keep hurting me like that, i just hope I have ALOT of bubbles to cover for the rest of my life. I know you've got history with him, I know he's still somewhere in her heart, although i don't know much because she barely tells about it, but our love have been real...

Another thing that really kinda annoys me is that she feels like I'm a celebrity or something, she feels like she doesn't deserve being with me and all those craps. Babe, let me tell you this, I love you, you love me, and thats it. You don't have to make things so complicated. and I'm not a person you think I am. I have flaws too. If you learn more about me, you'll soon find them out.. my flaws thats it

Everytime you wake up, you always say 'don't ever go away', and i NEVER planned to go away. But if things are left as it is now, I just don't know anymore... It hurts me when I think about either of us going away... It's just sad...

Some people just told me to be patient just because she's 'young', you know what, she's mature, she's smart, and she doesn't wanna hurt anyone. But if you stay where you are, you're just hurting more and more people..

Enough said... since someone has finally got my blog address, I can't really say much anymore...

To whom it may concern (Stefani Angela/Stefani/Angie/Baby/Boo/Mommy)

I just wanna say, I love you.. please just love me back.. I want all of you to be just mine..

When I said about giving you my last name, I was never joking, in-fact, i was dead serious.

Having Gru is one of the ways I could think of to prove my commitment to you..

Please... let me in your heart.. and just me..